music is my life. (: <3

Wednesday, February 28, 2007 2:12 AM

as shining winter fairies come floating down.
i kissed your smiling picture because i had nothing else to do.
at that long line outside the movies, we vowed
to never stand in line here together again.
but since my heart is next to yours
i still miss you even as a friend.
but i can't turn back ever again.

i love you, i want to see you again.
with a kiss, expressed along side 10 billion snowflakes.
until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace.
baby even if you forget me
is it okay for me to still love you?
i'll never forget you.

since the moment that i was alone.
i've realized what true loneliness is.
these overwhelming feelings in my heart that won't stop flowing out.
now, the way to love a person
is so important that i think a person shouldn't forget it.
no matter how many times my address changes.
i'll never let go of that voice or that dream.

even if you love someone else as time flows by.
i'll still remember you.
our destined meeting and the warmth we shared.
i'm glad that it was you, and i can say it from my heart.
until we someday meet again.

we can't stop the future from coming.
the feeling of sadness can quickly become forever.
even if i get wounded when i'm happy,
when i've fallen in love with a someone
just alive.

i love you, i want to see you again.
with a kiss, expressed along side 10 billion snowflakes.
until the day that we happen to cross paths someplace.
baby, even if you forget me
is it okay for me to still love you?
i'll never forget you.

and that's Winter Love by BoA for you.
i like the lyrics. (:
even though some parts might not make sense.
even though some parts don't exactly link with the rest.
but i still like it!

hm. chinese A levels results coming out for me on friday.
nervous? guess not.
hahas. not like it really matters alot to me anymore.

~~tomorrow~~later going either kbox or sentosa. ((:
quite expecting it to be great fun! (:

and to my beloved marie <3,
if you get to read this,
your lyn <3 just wanna wish you a very happy birthday! (:
even though it may not be the exact day of your birthday.
and even if everyone else is being mean to you on your birthday.
just wanna let you know that i still love and care for you.
and i really want you to be happy!
not just on your birthday, but on every other day. ((:
-hugs!
cheer up girl! ^^

hm, that's about the end of this entry.
take cares! (:

我发现
这当中
只有我伤你的份，
而你对我只有好，没有坏。
抱歉。

Monday, February 26, 2007 5:24 AM

and i still miss dan.
alot.

sigh.

been abit more short-tempered these days.
everything just doesn't seem to go right.
i hope everything turns right soon.
my loved ones are suffering because of my temper now.

<3

i wanna go kbox!
i wanna go iceskating!
i wanna go sentosa!
anyone wanna go with me? =D

hm, blogger's abit crazy at the moment.
but i just changed my template again.
this time, a plain one.
want everything simplified in my life, for now.

i want new songs!
anyone nice enough to send me? xD
through the rain - mariah carey
angels brought me here - guy sebastian
open your eyes - zhang hui mei
ni shi wo wei yi de zhi zhuo - jerry yan
taipei to beijing - shi xin hui

Thursday, February 22, 2007 11:17 PM

22nd february 2007.

today was fun! =D

hm. went to shop to gen auntie bai nian.
then she give me hongbao! =D
=xx

then went to bugis to look for an organizer.
but they were either ugly, not my type, or too expensive.
bleh. so didn't get down to buying it in the end.

then made my way to dhoby ghaut!
thought the rest haven't reached, so i bought myself a drink and kaya toast.
called jan, then she tell me they reach le. -.-"
went to meet them outside bunk.
hm. jan<3, jan[ze] and mak was there.
then went into bunk, find yu.
after that, mer and cruz came.
hm. then alot of people came, i got very confused le.
don't know who is who.
hiro came later also!

went to mac to eat.
after that, went to paradiz for pool.
after which we went to eat dou hua.

hahas.
alot of funny stuff today.

1. cruz went to ask the rest whether macdonald's meal can change drinks not. LOL.
2. when the countergirl asked him whether he wants sauce for his nuggets, he went "huh?!"
3. he doesn't know what dou hua is. and has never ate it before.

omg lah.
he damn nice to bully and everything.

anyway. today laugh alot.
so fun. ((:

12:55 AM

22nd february 2007.

&$)#$*)(@$#
something's wrong with my computer!
i cannot visit hiro's and my own blog!
the rest all can.
whyy. :(

anyway. today was quite a boring day.
went to uncle's place for steamboat.
nothing much.

hm. went on a shopping spree on tuesday! =D
bought a taiwanese serial drama "the hospital", a pair of jeans, a belt, a book and alot of snacks! =D

later meeting jan <3, marie <3, mak, ze, cruz, mer and i-don't-know-if-there's-anyone-else.
going bunk to audition i suppose.
so paiseh please.
i've only met jan <3 and marie <3 before.
x_x
nevermind.
i expect fun tomorrow! =D
later i mean. xD

friday going out with jack to get his bbq stuff on saturday.

saturday bbq.

yupps.
i wanna go shopping! =X

Monday, February 19, 2007 2:05 PM

19th february 2007.

chinese new year is good.
but red packets are better. (:

hahas. so far, i have a total of $410 worth of red packets.
xD
well, mum keeps $200 and the rest are mine.
including today's! =D

okay, i'm going out already.
feeling as branded as yesterday. xD

Saturday, February 17, 2007 1:50 AM

17th february 2007.

i'm going to smile like nothing's wrong,
talk like everything's perfect,
act like it's all a dream
and pretend it's not hurting me.

cause heaven knows,
why i live in despair.

Friday, February 16, 2007 1:37 AM

16th february 2007.

and i don't believe i got so emotional
just cause dan is leaving for malaysia.
and most likely, for good.
but damn, i miss him.

sigh.
he was such an angel.
brought so much more joy to my life.

..

and some things were never meant to last.

Sunday, February 11, 2007 2:01 AM

11th february 2007.

i'm going to smile like nothing's wrong,
talk like everything's perfect,
act like it's all a dream
and pretend it's not hurting me.

saw that somewhere just now.
i like it. (:

anyway.
i really think i'm freaking screwed.
damn.

i haven't got my singpass.
and i might only get it by wednesday.
which means jae could possibly be over. =(

aiya.
i suck.
always procrastinate. =(
sighs.

-hopes.

Saturday, February 10, 2007 3:03 AM

10th february 2007.

and as everything begins to drain me out,
i realised all i have to do is to look at the wallpaper on my phone.
that's all it takes to make me smile. (:
dan is so cute! ^^
so .. thanks to lionel. (:

five to six more working days.
lyn is looking forward. (:

and lyn don't like grace.
so lyn is now asking grace not to tag on her blog again.
lyn no want see grace.

okay. that was crappy.
hahahas.
but i'm feeling heavy.

it's now 3am.
and i'm going kbox later.
blah, i'm gonna die.

i'm damn tired now.
but i don't know why i don't wanna sleep. x_x

kay luh.
i think i'll force myself to sleep.
((:

i hope everything goes right this time. (:
thanks for not being upset with me for saying those.

Thursday, February 08, 2007 12:57 AM

8th february 2007.

and i felt that it was my fault again.
that i mislead someone.
that i depressed someone.

someone tell me what to do.
don't give a damn about that person?

what in the world did i do wrong ..

i need some time for myself.
that's why i need to stop work,
stop church.
i need it.
because i feel it coming.

..
damn.
i saw that today and i swear i felt so tempted.
tempted to start that all over again.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007 12:02 AM

7th february 2007.

today sucked.
everyone was so rude.
including daniel.
kinda upsetted me.
sighs.

yesterday, i was reading through some stuff in my lappie.
my thoughts.
sms-es which i typed and kept because they were really sweet.

which then made me realised that ..
promises are not promises afterall.
they can never be trusted to be kept.

but also made me very grateful for two people i have in my life.
hiro and jack.
because i realised that only the two of them really kept what they said.
and no other did.

".. so i give you my word i'll always forgive ur every fault, try my best to understand and definitely hold on to you, forever more. (= .."
that was part of one of the messages someone sent to me.
i know it's so impossible to forgive someone's every fault and stuff.
it's okay if that person didn't.
but now? we're barely even communicating.

".. can we stay as friends? i miss you.."
and now this person is the one who doesn't wish to be friends.
what an irony.

".. know i'm insignificant, but i'll always be behind you. .."
what a lie.
the person is so far back, i can't even see.

sighs.
i hate the word always and forever.
they so don't come true.

anyway.
last time when i was watching this channel 8 show.
i typed something down.

quoting from the show:

there was this story about the frog and the scorpion.
the scorpion wanted the frog to bring him across the river because he couldn't swim.
the frog agreed but made the scorpion promised that he'll not sting the frog while crossing.
the scorpion promised.
but in the end, the scorpion still stung the frog.
before the frog drowned, he asked the scorpion why.
and the scorpion said .. he couldn't help it.
then scorpion then drowned along with the frog.

i had been the frog once, i drowned.
it took alot of me to surface again and move on in life.
i don't wanna be the frog again.

okay. this entry is so emo.
i'll stop for now. (:

by the way, for your information,
this blog is currently public. (:

Saturday, February 03, 2007 9:45 PM

3rd february 2007.

i feel so branded today! =D
hahas.

went out with dad to shop for my brother's and my new year's clothings.
so our first stop was guess.
but i guess nothing much appealed to us.
we left guess, and we saw levi's!
one pair of jeans each for my father, my two brothers and me!
hm, $484?
around there. hahas.
cause got 50% discount for two of them. (:

then we headed for espirit.
hm. i wanted one of the bottoms there.
but dad said it's so ordinary.
so yah, forget that.
i got a top for $89.90! =D
nice blue top. xD
dad bought another pair of bottoms for $99.90.
leonard bought three tops!
so total was another $400 over.

then we decided to go mum mum.
went to this italian restaurant at paragon.
their food pretty nice. =D
$100? yeah.
lol.

then we went to some branded shop.
don't know how to spell. -.-"
but yah, it's at the entrance of paragon.
dad bought a key pouch for auntie for .. $309?
hahas. and their heels there are worth thousands.
saw this nice heels.
$1136.
lol.

then we went to armani exchange to look for auntie.
bought another top there.
just a plain collar tee for $109.
lol.

went to tods after that.
didn't buy anything.
auntie wanted to buy the shoe ..

then went to gucci.
lol. dad bought a $460plus belt.
auntie wanted to buy this $1500plus collar shirt for dad.
hahahas. but it's so ugly i think.
she also wanted to buy this $2000plus bag for him.
lol!

i tell you.
after today, i feel like $100 is only $10.
so my armani shirt is only $10.90.
hahahas.
seriously. i feel damn branded now.
=D

and also, my numeric memory rocks. xD

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and eternal damnation only comes when Jesus returns to earth for a second time; which is also known as the second coming of Jesus.
and that only happens when everyone has heard of Him and given a chance to turn their beliefs towards Christianity.

Thursday, February 01, 2007 12:47 AM

1st february 2007.

it's almost one in the morning.
and i found out something really shocking.
nevermind.
i'll take it step by step.

and then i thought back.
maybe i've been the bitch all this while.
to him, to her, to them and everyone else.

and then it hit me.
in the end, who was the one being hurt more?
who hurt who more?
who was to blame for all that happened?
him?
me?

are we supposed to have more than one special person?
the one they call the-meant-to-be.

if yes, then what's so special about them?
just because they are a few out of the thousands of people you are acquainted with?

if no, then how are we supposed to know who they are?
what if we meet them too late?

for that i say, true love does not exist.

and memories came flooding back ..

maybe i'll change my blog link soon.

and maybe i felt it coming.
you see, we were fated.
this whole thing was so fated.

12:13 AM

31st january 2007.

daniel totally made my day.
even though it was at the very last hour.
hahas.
he's undeniably naughty,
but so irresistably cute.
((:
i loveeee daniel. =D
maybe if i see him tomorrow and i have the time,
i'll take a picture with him. xD

hm.
and i wanted to go on blogging.
but because of some interruption,
i forgot what i wanted to blog.
lol. xD
so nevermindd.

take cares! (: